It’s Friday night and I can hear the sound of sirens in the distance. I’m looking out onto the city from a relatively high point in Laurel Canyon and the view is spectacular. The city lights look like tiny fireflies and from up here, I feel a bit isolated. Even though it would have been easy to hang out with friends or family tonight, the past three days were such a commitment and test to my willingness and discipline that I felt like being alone, especially this evening. I am just finishing up a particularly long day and night of work and listening to music has really helped the day along. The Three Mile Pilot record “A Town We Once Knew” is very melancholic, ghostly and eerie and it was sort of a reflection of how I was feeling for majority of the day.
At around 5:00 PM I made a quick run to a friend’s recording studio with his pug who makes me smile. On the way back I got a sudden surge of energy and it was kind of startling because I had no idea where it came from. I felt wide awake for no apparent reason. My appearance wasn’t so inviting, though. I had puffy eyes, my muscles ached and my skin felt dry and I looked unfamiliar. I’m hoping for a good night’s rest and look forward to getting my body ready for a small but healthy meal in the morning so my body isn’t too surprised when it is fed.
The psychological effects of this fast are very obvious – it impacted my train of thought in different ways each day. The physical aspects made me feel useless. I though to myself at times, just have some tea I mean, it’s like water. But then I would just think about how I got through the past two days and pushed myself to go one more. Like many of the people who have participated and whose journal entries I was able to read, I had to remember this was not about me ‘succeeding’ but doing my part as a human who wants to see change in the world and an end to the crisis in Darfur. I thought about inspiring people, like Mahatma Gandhi and Aung San Suu Kyi whose passion and dedication to nonviolence are remembered by what they sacrificed for the welfare of humans – even though they both faced an injustice from the cruelty of humans.
This fast is very very difficult, but I believe it has been my duty to try my best to join the efforts and set an example.
Tomorrow morning I will pass the baton and look forward to hearing about the experiences of the next person. But furthermore, it will be another person like you and me spreading the message and continuing to make people aware of these horrid crimes against humanity.